Twenty Fifteen

ALOHA! Time flies so fast, really! It's 2015. Viola!

So how are you? Has 2014 been good to you? Are those specific dreams and aims accomplished? Have you started anything?

Will 2015 be good to you? Do you have that dreams and aims to be accomplished this 2015? Will you continue what you have started?

These has been my questions (or somehow a challenge) for myself.

If I could some up 2014 it would be a turning point year for me- of my career, belief, and of my self worth! I now have a work- a career maybe. And I have been in a company for a year (woohoo). This is a personal achievement.

Well this year 2015, I will definitely make a blast! Here are the list that I need to accomplish, what I want for myself, what I need to do for my family, friends and other people.

1) Let's start with my dreams. I want to travel. I want to enjoy creations of God. I want to be with the people I love.
 -- I'll be hitting Baguio City this year.
-- I'll travel to random places. And I'll start it in the provinces of Cebu (I use work here).
Also I want to pursue those things I want-my dreams. I want to become a radio DJ.  I want to try to surf. I want to sing in a fancy hotel. I want to write in a newspaper. I want my writings to be published. I know I keep saying this but I have not yet accomplished this, and I will have to say that I will accomplish these this year!!!

2) Relationships.
It's so disappointing that I haven't start my year well in terms of relationships. We had a misunderstanding with my family. Well, I have not talked to them today. There have been issues in my family that is hard for me to handle. I am really weak when it comes to family. I so love my family so much that maybe I am somehow becoming bitter. My sister is having a baby and she is getting married this year. She never even told me how intimate the relationship she had with her boyfriend. I felt that the boyfriend is stealing my younger sister from us-- well from me. I know I should not feel this way because I know God doesn't want me to feel this way. But this is what I am feeling today. I pray that God will heal me and will secure me and will teach me how to unconditionally love my sister. I know that love is to be shared. You cannot keep love and you cannot beg for it, it is given. :)

-- I'll have a strong relationship with my family. I work away from home so I just come home maybe at least twice a year. So I want to make the most out of it.
-- I want to travel with my family.
-- I will become a nice Aunt.
-- I should learn to love the love of the people I love. :)
-- I should not be selfish!


3) Spirituality..
I should focus more on my relationship with the Lord. I know He has a purpose to me and I know my purpose-- to make Him known. And I want to do more of this this year!

In terms of spirituality, here are my specific aims:
-- To continue to serve in the ministry.
-- To spread the Word- especially to my family. I have shared God to my mother and my brother. My aim this year is to talk with my father in a heart to heart basin, and my sister, and my sister's soon to be husband.
-- To lead people to Jesus.
-- To continue reading the bible... And to finish reading it.
-- To know God more.
-- To start leading a DGroup- if God permits.

4) Self improvement!
Beauty and health should also be one of my priority this year. I need to be beautiful. I should take care of myself more so that I will become attractive inside and outside. I should also take care of my health!
-- Eat on proper time.
-- Exercise!
-- Take care of myself.
-- My face should not have visible pimples. And my pooooooores... pores..
-- I should take care of my physical appearance. I should have manicure and pedicure twice a month. I should wax every month. I should beautify myself.
-- I should eat healthy foods!!

5) Career!
I should try to look for opportunities! In terms of my career, I should be bold enough to try... Try to look for more opportunities.. Maybe outside the Philippines...

Patiently Waiting

"Good things happen to those who wait."- This is my quote for today from an actress interviewed in a showbiz oriented show.

I am always a late comer.You know why? Because I am very impatient. I have a thinking that it will be better if they wait for me that I will wait for them.

I am starting to realize that if I learn not to be late, I can say that I am learning to be patient! I am praying that I will never be a late comer. I can remember my friend saying that he would rather wait for other people even for a very long time than to let other people wait for him. He is not a late comer. He told me he never experienced being late.

I am learning o be patient but there is some part in my brain that tells me to grab the opportunity when I know it is not the right time yet. Some of my brain hormones tell me to do this to get things easier and experience what you need to experience...but I know that I should not do that.

I never had a boyfriend since birth, honestly. Most of the time, I ask myself why? Is there a problem with me? Am I that ugly that no one will be interested with me? Although I say that I am okay, but often in a silent night, I ask myself these questions.

I believe in fairy tale but somehow it's never happening to me.

The thing that negates this thinking is that I God loves me as I am. I know He has prepared someone for me. I am very hopeful. In the million of men in the world, God will not boast one to me, I know. I will continue to pray for him. And of course for myself, to be patient enough until I found the one who God wants for me.

:))))

Blog Visit

Hello to my BLOG!!! Ako ra mo welcome sa akong self kay wala man ni traffic akong blog jud! hahaha. well, it's better this way.

Magkatawa ko magbasa sa akong mga blogs.. Dugay2 na jud diay ko wala kasulat diri bah! hahaha..
mga wala na dayun, mga changes, chuva.. wala ko nadayun as a teacher.. I do hope na makateach jud ko in the future and in God's time. Medyo na pod nagkafriends mi atong tao sa akong previous blog. Parang civil lang pero dili jud super friends...

I am so happy of what are happening to my life now! :))Magpasalamat jud ko sa Ginoo na wala jud ko niya pabayai.. Nanatili japon Siya sa akoa..

Sige ra kog battle sa ako self na mu ana ko na wala ra jud changes sa akong life atong wala pa nako na meet ang Ginoo. Pero nagpasalamat ko na nilabaw jud ang akong nakita og napansin na changes sa akoang self. People often notice na murag wala kaayo ko problema na pagkatao.. Sauna moingon ko na, ngeee sige mag emo2 nlng ko para mapansin ko nila.. DIli man sa ingon na papansin jud ko na pagkatao. Pero dili lang ko ganahan na mao na ang impression jud sa mga tao sa ako. Ako man gud ang isa ka tao na dili ko gusto ma center of attention. Gusto lang ko sa kilid lang. Pero ako na ni xang appreciate. MAkaingon jud ko na positive jud ni nako na trait sa akong self. Nagsilbi pod siguro ko og inspiration sa ubang tao (siguro). But I kno gituyo jud ni sa Ginoo that I have the positive and cheerful spirit.. :D Makaingon pod ko na lahi na jud ko if I'll recall myself sauna. .Sa akong view sa life, lahi na jud. Ma aware na ko sa akong mga iistorya og panghuna hunaon. Dili na kaayo ko mogossip. I am learning to just shut up when I know na ang akong opinion maka heat up ra sa conversation. You know naa man gud sa ako character na maayo kaayo modala og istorya so ang mga kaistorya pod nako kay grabe jud og paminaw sa akoa. Og makaingon pod ko na somehow, gi value nila ako opinion. So I have learned to control what I will say. I hope padayun na ni. Sa akong treatment sa akong pamilya. You know I am not the sweet type of girl jud. I used to hate saying lofty words to my loved ones but now I am learning to do it naturally. All for His glory jud!

Pasalamat jud ko sa Ginoo sa iyang gibuhat jud sa akong life. Although dili ko pareha anang uban na naligaw jud og landas then nindot jud kaayo og testimony para sa ubang tao. Pero enough na jud sa akoa ang gibuhat sa Ginoo para sa akoa.

:)))))

I am super excited on what God's plan for me. :)

Ikaw!

"I won't give up on us!"

I don't know this should not be the way it should be. But I am certain that I what I did is just stare at you sing those lines..... You are so adorable! That's no doubt. Attractive. Very. Mga gwapa pa jud ang maattract sa imoha! Hayyyyy....

Gi control jud ko ning feelings nako ba but I do not know there is something when I look in your eyes. Swerte jud kaayo kung kinsa man ang imohang madayun  in the future. Hoping jud ko noh? Na it will not possibly happen. You never ever laid your eyes on me. Siguro there are times na I feel ni tan.aw ka nako but namalik mata ra ko ato. I'm not your type. I'll just continue watching you from afar. Although i pray na makarecover ra ko ani akong feelings. This is becoming so unhealthy.

Help me Oh Lord. Guard my HEART <3

dan

In God's Time

Hi there everyone! uhm, although i'm hoping walang makakabasa nito na kilala ako. hehehe.. nahihiya kasi ako eh. sabi nila makapal ang mukha ko, confident, but deep inside me, I'm really shy. Funny, but it's true. 

Ito na naman ako nagpupuyat na naman. I am down to my last four episodes of love Rain, a Korean drama I really like. It thought me of undying love. I realize na totoo siguro na in our life, we only love once. Isa lang talaga yung taong mamahalin natin nang lubos. Yung you can't imagine loving somebody else, or spending your lifetime with somebody else but the one you only love. Well, we have a choose to pursue our love or to let it go. It's definitely our choice. We are given the free will. But we have to deal with the consequences with the decision we make.

Ako, before i am always excited to love and be loved back. I want to experience the feeling. I want to be treated nice and yung parang may napapasaya ako. i was sad then, but now I am somehow happy that I have never loved yet. The love that I can say, the love of my life. I know God is reserving the best for me. :) 

I am excited for the one who I will love. I know he will come and he is there waiting for me. I hope he is waiting for me. And see me soon. 

I am looking forward to be with him soon in God's time. I should really not get in a hurry. I should not be pressured. I have a lot of time. :)))))))

In God's time. In God's time. I really won't waste my time. 

<3

Happiness

Happiness is a choice. i am a cheerful person. Some say I am a joker. But they don't know what is really inside of me.
I easily laugh, smile, cry. I love to be HAPPY all the TIME!!!!!!!! I'm fulfilled when I make other people happy. And this small happiness, I won't really forget.

Photo taken by my sister. Me playing at the arcade. Bonding time with siblings.. :)))

happy me

Pursuing My Dream of Being A Teacher

I can still remember, I was in my ES 91 Engineering Economy class. It was our first meeting and we were all ask to say something about ourselves and our dreams. Some of my classmates dream to become the most successful engineer, become a businessman. And I can remember one of my guy classmate said that his dream is to marry his girlfriend. And you wanna know what I said that time? Hmmm. I said I wanna be a teacher- that my passion is teaching.

I love to teach. I think I have a talent of teaching. I like to explain what I learn. I love it when they know something from me. I don't know when exactly did I say to myself that I love to be a teacher.

I have not entertained or pursue my dream of becoming a teacher until it just pass by my way. YES! My dream is right in front of me this afternoon when our adviser asked who wants to teach. All I need to do is grab, hold and never let it go.

I was discouraged before because I know I do not have super high grades during my college life. I mean, I pass the subject but my grades are not so high. When they asked for graduates to teach summer class, I was not there because as my friends would say, "Busy girl kaayo ka dan, wala nanoon ka naapil sa lecturers for summer." I was disappointed. I remembered, I have emailed our Sir if they still need a lecturer but he never replied. But I still want to teach and have pact with my friends to apply as lecturer to another school because we believe that we will not be able to lecture at IIT. We only have average grades and we thought that they will choose graduates with higher GPA.

Weeks passed but we never passed our resume to the schools we want to apply. Laziness strikes again. So I told myself to just give up on teaching. maybe teaching is not for me. And flowered by the thoughts that I will just have to travel different places in the Philippines (Manila and Cebu).

Until..... a teaching opportunity is right in front of me. And our adviser said that I will handle a subject this coming semester along with my friends who I made pact with. At first, I am very happy for this opportunity. I do not care about the wage, I just want to experience my dream. But there is at the back of my mind that says this is a hindrance to my plans to go travel different places and apply training at Manila for Xinyx.

But I am awakened that this is the plan God has for me. I am having a hard time on how I will spend my first six months as a graduate. Thus thinking of traveling. But this one came. And I believe that this is really for me. This is what God has to do for me. To experience my dream. To be a teacher even just for a semester.

I do not know what's ahead of me, but one thing is for sure---- My plans are far enough from His plans. :)

Soon Ma'am Dan